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As Lou Gehrig once said, “Today, I consider myself the luckiest man on the face of the earth.” Well, I think I’m a pretty damn lucky guy myself. Why? Because if you find that one passion which completely takes over you—I’m talking about a passion so searing inside that it’s wild like lightning—then you’ve come to recognize your course in life. Whatever that calling is, it’s a gift that each one of us carries but many miss the opportunity to act upon. Life… just happens, you know? It’s understandable. But when you see this passion unfurl with remarkable clarity so early in your formative years, it’s your responsibility to pay that gift back by using it. In fact, it should be nothing less than expected of you because, otherwise, you commit a crime against yourself and treason toward the world at large; this is something you’ve got to share, and you better share it loud.

I found my passion, and I found it young: the movies. And as I write with some absurd need to communicate with myself now that I’ve reached another decade in my life, this is a reminder that I have this gift, this NEED to write and tell stories. However good I am at it is for others to decide; that’s not my concern. My radar focus is to ensure that I do exactly what it is I’m doing right now and follow my bliss. So I set aside some movies for me to remember and share—a record of my inspirations and aspirations. These are films that, as the cliché goes, have shaped me to become the person that I am today. They’re my tool kit—my painter’s palette or sculptor’s mold. I can try to blow hot air about what I believe their significance is, but that’s not what made them special. No, it was their humanity. To make a long story short, I wouldn’t be what I am today without them. And as the years grind forward, they’ll bring me comfort when I’m feeling low, vigor when I stagnate, and happiness through and through—just like they have countless times before. I wish that everyone experiences what I have been so fortunate to be blessed with these first 30 years. Now, like the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse, I’ll continue to ride the lightning with clamor and force. Life is too short for any comprises. 

1. On the Waterfront (1954) 
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2. Rocco and His Brothers (1960)
Rocco

3. The Crowd (1928)
The Crowd

4. The Rules of the Game (1939)
Rules

5. Nashville (1975)/McCabe & Mrs. Miller (1971)
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McCabe

6. Barry Lyndon (1975)
Barry Lyndon

7. Ashes and Diamonds (1958)
Ashes and Diamonds

8. Badlands (1973)
Badlands

9. L’Avventura (1960)
L'avventura

10. Viridiana (1961)
Viridiana

11. The Grapes of Wrath (1940)
The Grapes of Wrath

12. Le Samouraï (1967)
Le Samourai

13. The Lady Eve (1941)
The Lady Eve

14. The Last Picture Show (1971)
Picture Show

15. In the Mood for Love (2000)
In the Mood for Love

16. To Be or Not To Be (1942)
To Be

17. Jules and Jim (1962)
Jules and Jim

18. Ran (1985)
Ran

19. The Conformist (1971)
The Conformist

20. Pierrot le Fou (1965)
Pierrot Le Fou

21. The Music Room (1958)
The Music Room

22. The Marriage of Maria Braun (1979)
Marriage

23. Mon oncle d’Amérique (1980)
Mon Oncle

24. Local Hero (1983)
Local Hero

25. The Hustler (1961)
The Hustler

26. Scorpio Rising (1964)
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27. Diner (1982)
Diner

28. A Moment of Innocence (1996)
A Moment

29. Teorema (1968)
Teorema

30. Saturday Night and Sunday Morning (1960)
Saturday Night

Top Ten Movies: 2015

45 Years

A sporadic year overall. But while many critics bemoan the death of cinema, the commercial success of films like Star Wars: The Force Awakens reassure us that the experience of watching a movie in a theater and with an audience is still, you know, an actual thing. In the meantime, here’s my personal Top Ten of the year. Unfortunately, I still have a lot of catching up to do before I expand on it any further. Guess I’ve got some homework to do. Happy New Year, everyone!

1. 45 Years (Andrew Haigh)
2. Son of Saul (Lázló Nemes)
3. Mustang (Deniz Gamze Ergüven)
4. Mad Max: Fury Road (George Miller)
5. Clouds of Sils Maria (Olivier Assayas)
6. Phoenix (Christian Petzold)
7. The Duke of Burgundy (Peter Strickland)
8. Experimenter (Michael Almereyda)
9. Jauja (Lisandro Alonso)
10. Spotlight (Tom McCarthy)